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Time:04:03 am
Current Mood: like a freeloader
And I have now officially deleted all my pictures. I need some remodeling up in this game. So, if anybody wants to make me a pretty lj picture.. I'd dance.
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Current Music:Saves The Day - SEE YOU
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Time:11:17 am
Current Mood:anxiousanxious
My Ana's song.

Her life was magazines and faithful TV screens selling an empty dream of cars and calories and everything in between the sun and saturn's ring, but the price tag can't be seen and it took bites out of her insides till she was just a hollow shell. She grew up in East LA watching celebrities living out all her dreams. The plastic canopy of US royalty drew her gaze towards the sky and away from her own mind. And at her home her mother cried cause daddy had something on the side and they didn't look up when she sighed. And when August came around, the bathing suits were on the ground replaced by a cotton cloak. To see her own reflection was like squinting in the sun. And when all tomorrow brings is a set of broken wings it takes bites out of your insides till you are just a hollow shell.

Saves The Day - Cars and Calories
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Current Music:Something on Showtime
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Time:12:30 am
Current Mood:aggravatedaggravated
You can never be too rich or too thin.
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Current Music:My brother playing the piano.
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Time:03:25 pm
Current Mood:highhigh
All hopped up on cocaine. Once again.
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Time:10:14 pm
Current Mood:amusedamused


Insensitive? Maybe.
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Current Music:A special on TV about obesity.
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Time:08:39 pm
Current Mood:scaredscared
I don't know if I have these phobias. But these are things I am very very afraid of right now. These things limit my life.

aichmophobia ... needles
alektorophobia: ... chickens
catagelophobia: ... being ridiculed
cleisiophobia: ... being locked in
contreltophobia: ... sexual abuse
eremophobia: ... being oneself
gerascophobia: ... growing old
hedonophobia: ... feeling pleasure
iophobia: ... poison
ornithophobia: ... birds
philophobia: ... falling in love
arachnophobia: ... spiders
iatrophobia: ... doctors

I could not find the names of phobias that I was looking for. Maybe they do not exist. Maybe it is just me. The other things I am completely illogically paranoid of are:

+ obesity
+ being obese
+ not being good enough
+ speaking in front of people [mostly people i know]
+ rejection
+ being tied up
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Current Music:THE PET STORE BOYS - West End Girls
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Time:02:24 pm
Current Mood:curiouscurious
So. I really need / want some kind of gritty tar. Does anyone know if I can buy this at like.. Home Depot or something? Or if it comes off of skin easily with some special cleansing product?
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Current Music:Culture Club - Karma Chameleon
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Time:01:28 pm
Current Mood:nauseatednauseated


That is a pound of fat.
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Current Music:Zelda music from the TV.
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Time:01:06 pm
Current Mood:angryangry
God. I am such a bad person. In my other journal I always write about the drugs I do and stuff, and every other word is fuck. And so naturally a good friend of mine from this past summer, Sarah [ a really really good girl. Very religious and truthful and funny and just.. good ], found my journal and commented all friendly-like. But now I feel like shit because I know she doesn't do all of the drugs I do and she doesn't curse, and even though she didn't say anything.. I know she doesn't approve. And so now I'm like, "FUCK.. everyone I know is going to know how awful I am now" .. bah.
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Time:08:06 am
Current Mood:angryangry
I officially have writer's
block. gravel and
mortar stacked behind the
eyes.
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